Vegas?!!

So I admit it I am more than a little freaked out . . ."E", aka my boyfriend, has for the last week or so been joking that he should just whisk me off to Vegas to elope. NOT FUNNY. I know I have commitment issues but come on now. The idea of marrying someone I have only known for a couple of months . . .Is enough to make me run for the hills and not look back.

Especially since said boyfriend recently gave me a picture frame for my birthday. . .Thanks for the present you usually give your grandmother or mother. . .Very romantic. Yes, I know he was trying and I know that his original plans for my birthday fell through. . .Since he found out it was something I didn't want and wouldn't enjoy. Sometimes I wish he wouldn't try so hard . . .I wish he would just relax and quit trying so hard to make me happy. . .I know this sounds silly. I should be thrilled to have a boyfriend who only wants to make me happy but is it really OK that making me happy requires a "special" effort. I don't want to date someone who is always walking on egg shells trying to keep me happy.

I guess this is why I have always tended toward the alpha males. . .They do what they want and don't give a damn if it makes you happy or not.