Saturday, September 16, 2006

The DANGER of Being Single Too Long

So lately all of my single guy friends are dating and or looking for younger women. And suddenly I realized that for many years I was the younger woman since I used to date older men. Now I am that almost 30 women that the type of men I am friends with now and the type of men I used to date are dating the younger women.

Even my most reasonable guy friends are dating these younger women because they "aren't jaded" or skeptical. Reflecting on these phrases makes me realize that one of the larger dangers of being single as long as I and many of my female friends have is that your bound to have been disappointed enough times that you are a little "jaded" and "skeptical." It becomes harder and harder to turn off that inner voice that says "Is this guy for real?"

Since arriving in Vegas I have been on dates with two different guys and both went pretty well. But I couldn't turn off that skeptical voice that kept saying "What is wrong with this one?" or "When will the other shoe fall?" I confess I am skeptical and jaded but I also argue that I am worth it. If someone gets past the first wall I still let go. Sometimes I just need them to show me that they really want to be there and they are willing to take a chance.

Thursday, September 07, 2006

Somethings are Over-Rated

So here I am now an official resident of the legendary LAS VEGAS. . .a huge, exciting city and I have never been so over worked and unfun in my life. I know some of this initial rush of my new career is destined to eventually settle down and become more routine but somehow it is even more frustrating to be in this city with so much to do and have no time to do any of it.

I had forgotten how hard it is to be the clueless new kid. Yes, it is exciting to start fresh but it is also scary, frustrating, tiring and just plain lonely at times. I miss sleepy little Tallahassee and all its green charm. I miss my friends. I miss being a short car trip from Mom and Dad.

It was much better to be a BIG fish in a little pond than now being a tiny fish in a HUGE pond.